Monday, March 21, 2011

A LADY IN HER 50'S

A closed cabin next to mine accomodated a lady in her 50's suffering with loads of pain.
Often i used to listen some painful cries from there but i was too in the bad state half conscious half un -conscious that it botherd me but just for the fraction of time.
Days passed ,we both just heard each other and we both were in immense pain with all kinds of antibiotics being poured in our sensitive bodies though injections and drips, and me thinking that my condition is worst.
After few days i started to walk and move a little and i just crossed her cabin and was shocked to see her state of health.Four tubes attached to her lower neck portion fixed with a tape so hard which hid her half cheek just blew my pain off.
Fiar lady with the urine and blood bag hanging by her bedside and in tremendous pain....... made me think that why God give so much of suffering to His own children.
After few more days we both got shifted from our cabins with our beds next to each other.
I recoverd and she was recovering too. We had a small chat and i came to know that she was suffering from ovarian cancer.Doctors did their best to remove all cancerous cells and parts but still one ovary which was highly cancerous was left untouched for futher chemotherapeutic treatment.
Beautiful ,fair ,lovely with sutures on her stomach and her veins in hand punctured by thousands of needles made me feel her pain which was thousand times more than mine.which  i had never imagined.
From that particular moment i just prayed for her recovery only!
SOMETIMES SOME PEOPLE MAKE YOU THINK THAT'MY LIFE IS STILL MUCH BETTER YAAR"
THANK GOD.
Selfish feeling i know but.......... im also human what to do!
MAY SHE RECOVERS SOON IS MY ONLY PRAYER TO GOD  

LIFE INSIDE A TUBE

I always felt that 'life' word in itself is the most meaningful indeed!Whereever the 'LIFE' IS ,THERE THE PLACE AUTOMATICALLY BECOMES LIVELY.But my life experiences (TWICE) had made me feel that some lifes are meant to be ceased to make the other person survive.
Five years back an incident happened in my life and i bore a life inside me in my fallopian tube. The case became critical after two months and I had to be operated upon to cease it.......(my first child)
I recoverd fom that trauma and time again started running in its original pace.But people often say that history repeats itself,i never believed them but same tragedy happened to me this year too.
Begining of year 2011 was all rosy and i was thrilled to know that God has blessed me to bear a life (my child) in me once again.Two months just passed with all the hopes in my heart that nine months will pass soon, but destiny can't be defied.
28th feb i was again detected with a life growing in my other tube.Heart broken at that particular moment i desired to finish my life too along with the one inside me.But such things are not that easy to do.
Again fate had driven me to the hospital and again i passed through all pain and trauma of being operated again and spending 10 days on hospital bed,with all drips and blood bags attached and hanging too close to my body .
Painful indeed!but one can't change what all is predestined.
Now with both the tubes missing inside me i feel a kind of hollow in my life as the most potent parts of my body were being removed as they carried Life which they were not supposed to!
But this whole incident taught me a wonderful lesson------One will be punished if One tries to do things which are not meant to be done ,may be early or little late in life.
With few healed up marks on my lower abdomen i feel that i was meant to be punished and i was ..........may be directly or
i can say may be indirectly!!!

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